Saturday, January 06, 2007
hello(:
i was very happy and smiley till i got t know of some stuff
my maid is very upset now
and theres nth much i can do
cause her mummy's very ill now
got her the air tickets t go back for a week
the only thing i can do is t pray for her t be strong
cause its sth she has t encounter anyhow
its jsut a matter of time
its a horrible feeling t lose smone you love
and its especially horrible t know your time with that smone is nearing an end
not knowing how t prepare yourself for the day the person leaves your world
its gna be tough on her but she will be strong i know (:
talking t audrey now about subj combi
im trying not t think of the worse
i really dont know what im good at
and what im good at is not what i like
all those shit choices i have t make
its ridiculous how we have t make choices that will affect our life so early
i cant believe im thinking about all these at this stage of my life
hai i guess i have t understnd its no more comfort zone
it never was and that facts goona hit me more real than before
i chose sci in the end
ill make myself like it i will
i MUST
its my fault i cant do humans my eng sucks i cant take lit
ill have t deal with that
trying t convince myself ill be a child doc next time
not that bad a career i dont mind
but i dont feel atease
i hate this feeling
im really lost
): that feeling sucks!
and i dont even know who t talk to
it seems im the only one so unsure
everyone else know what they want in life
fine its just me
i pray i wont live t regret
i can just see myself breaking down next yr
):
change topic so depressing
ive alr made my choice
no use lamenting
ill have t work hard! haha
went for RDA today
its our training course!
super fun
sihui got to ride a horse for the first time in her life :D
and i got t ride my horsey too
its diff from those i rode in yunnan on the mountains
but it was still exciting(:
met many new pple and we were the youngest of the whole batch
the rest of them were smu pple and some other nj pple
desmond was sharing stories about quirky kids
really interesting i cant wait t side walk!
on the way home at the bust stop
i met a lil malay girl with her parents
she was so cute! she smiled at me
and we both started playing peek a boo behind the bust stop notice board frames
hahahaha! so cute (:
heh and she waved bye bye t me before she left
i love her ! ok sounds wrong
but a smile seemed t make so much a difference(:
and looking at the world thru the eyes of a child seemed so much more simple
i like being young! who cares if im childish!hahaha i dont wana grow up!
adults like t make things complicated
find problems and making their own lives miserable
whats the point of getting so upset everyday
smile and be jolly!
have fun dont complain and enjoy!
but then again dont waste ur time away (:
hc oreintation has been fun so far
met new friends talked t them and got t know them better!
hahaha very interesting
watching each character unfold was quite amusing
haha shall talk about it aft everything ends bah!
was in the hall that day
and some pple's conversation almost made me laugh out loud but i couldn!
ahhaah but i feel quite sad for them also
sure they have fun with their friends getting high and all
but what my friend said made me wonder
she asked me if those pple actually like being like that
clubbing, hanging out, shopping, gossiping blahblah
its fun! but it seems like the only things they do with each other
spreading runours saying mean things and talking behind ur own friends back
ridiculous things pple do
theyre only on the surface
are the friends they make really true
hahah ok enough crap
i cant be bothered with their lives
im happy with my own now! hahah
cant wait for porgy outing! (:
TATA
theres so much more
;; right from the beginning
